I am still listening to lady gaga and realize what I'm going through is a lovegame. I want to be smart about this whole dealingmy baby's father. It seems my heart keeps on getting in the way. I want to believe that he changed my mother has even talked to him with me present. I feel I should listen to her this time around a little more closely. Of course I want him in his child's life but him being in my life as a lover I don't know. Anywy went to the ped for Mariana this past Mon to she what I can do for her constipation and bumps on her face. Ohh by the way again thank you regina for the advice but I went with the ped offer which is Karo syrup (dark corn syrup with luke warm nusery water) does the trick also. So I am happy to say that she has poop twice today...yay. Wow can't believe I writing these and I am actually happy to write these. Being a parent changes how you look at thing and think of things. Currently I am thinking what will be best for Mariana and I in the long run and I am so nervous.


Written by a loving mother